“When one tugs at a single thing in nature, he finds it attached to the rest of the world.” – John Muir
This post was previously published on 12/14/2022. Heads up – you may have already read this!
The other day I felt like I was working at my desk when pressure tipped the scales and slid into anxiety. I had a client project that wasn’t going well, something that I tried to do for a friend didn’t turn out as I hoped, the holiday bills were adding up and I had strange red spots splotching the skin on my face. In response, I was eating all the Christmas candy I could find even though I knew the only way that candy would solve my problems was that it soon would be my biggest belly-ache. So I managed to put down the sugar and I went for a walk.
“And into the forest I go, to lose my mind and find my soul.”
John Muir
For all the John Muir and Henry David Thoreau quotes that I love, the person that I often think of when I feel this way is Beck Weathers. I wrote a post about him – The Power of Stories. He is the Texas pathologist caught in the 1996 storm on Everest that Jon Krakauer wrote about in Into Thin Air.
Beck tells the story that he climbed to escape depression. He’d head out into the mountains because climbing helped alleviate the darkness he was feeling. But it became a cycle of its own – he had to climb bigger and bigger things in order to keep depression at bay. Which is how he ended up at 27,000 feet on Everest in one of the deadliest storms.
I relate to Beck’s story not because I’ve suffered from depression but because mountains have given me relief from my own psychology. I started climbing in my late 20’s because I was bored after breaking up with a boyfriend and yearning for something bigger. I literally turned the corner on a street one day, Mt. Rainier lorded over my view, as it does so often in Seattle, and I knew I had to climb it.
What is it about climbing that makes it such a relief? For me it’s that when I’m having to work so hard to keep my body safe, my mind finally takes a back seat. When I’ve reduced what I have to do to the simple task of putting one foot in front of another and find a rhythm that works, I relax because I have far fewer choices about what to do or say next. At the same time, the perspective puts my ego into check because I’m no longer the main player in the small stage of my life, I’m a microscopic speck on the enormous stage of nature.
“The clearest way into the Universe is through a forest wilderness.”
John Muir
In many senses, climbing was the beginning of my meditation journey. It slows my mind down, it simplifies what I need to do and it puts my ego in its place. To a degree now even walking does that for me when the muscle memory kicks in.
My favorite meditation is one that makes me think back to my climbing experiences. It’s where I feel the weight of everything I’m carrying on my back – the way the shoulder straps dig into my shoulders and the hip belt cinches my gut, the pressure of it all pushing my feet heavily into the ground. And then I take off the metaphorical backpack and sit with it in front of me, emptying out everything I carry one by one onto the ground before me. As I watch myself unload my problems and worries, I get a sense of detachment from them, a space that opens ever so slightly because they have been separated from my back. And then, after a few minutes of unloading, contemplating and breathing, I reload my backpack with only what I need to carry.
I always walk away from that meditation feeling lighter. Like walking and climbing, it gives me a bit of perspective and distance. I still need to return and figure out my problems but I can do it from a more capacious sense.
That happened with Beck Weathers as well. When he returned from Everest, albeit without his toes, nose, most of one arm and the fingers from the other, he was able to deal with his depression more holistically. His story always gives me inspiration – that I can face what’s weighing me down, use the tools I’ve learned from my experience, and maybe even roll it into something hopeful for others.
“Climb the mountains and get their good tidings. Nature’s peace will flow into you as sunshine flows into trees. The winds will blow their own freshness into you, and the storms their energy, while cares will drop off like autumn leaves.”
John Muir
And so it went the other day with my anxiety – I took it out for a walk and it came back in a much more manageable size. One where I could sit with one thing at a time, hold it in perspective to life and the world and then deal with it in its own rhythm.
I only scarfed down just a little more candy along the way.
I’ve written a post about a different type of letting go on Wise & Shine: Am I Copying? Getting Over Writing Defensiveness
Your reading my mail Wynne 😊 . . . climbing among His mountain cathedrals is where my soul is at peace, finds it’s solace, and touches heaven.
Thanks lady.
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Ah, such a beautiful comment, Fred. Yep, peace, solace and heaven. Wonderful, Fred!
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“For me it’s that when I’m having to work so hard to keep my body safe, my mind finally takes a back seat…” This is quite profound, Wynne. I can see how it led to meditation as an exercise for you.
Yesterday sounded rough and thankfully it’s done. Hope today is a better and calmer day for you!
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Ah, thanks, my friend. I suppose we all have different ways we integrate mind, body and soul, right?
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While I’m not a climber, I relate to walking to help lighten the load my spirit might have taken on. Many times I’ve taken prayer walks where I pour out my heart to God, my angels and the universe. I find walking to be very restorative!
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Restorative — what a wonderful word for it. Thanks, Tamara!
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Thanks Wynne! Hope your day is wonderful!
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Unloading your full backpack metaphorically is very effective. And so much safer than doing the backpack-laden climb first! I like it!!
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Great point to empty the backpack first, Jane! 🙂 ❤
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Wonderful to have that actual physical lived experience to refer back to, Wynne.
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Ah, what a lovely comment, VJ. Yes, it’s nice to have a touch point, isn’t it?
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Neat to read about how climbing has affected you, and the relationship it has had with your meditation. And your note about going for a walk, then your anxiety was more manageable. I’m similar in taking walks. They can be helpful in a soothing way.
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Soothing way – well put, Dave! Yes!
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I think you should periodically post this for the greater good, Truly. It’s a favorite and the message and reminders come at the perfect time. Xo! 🥰
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What a lovely and affirming comment. Thank you, my dear friend! ❤ ❤ ❤
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🥰❤️🥰
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I like the picture of unloading the pack and only putting back the good stuff.
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Wouldn’t it be great to take that heavy stuff out permanently? I know that’s not how life works but as an aspiration?? 🙂
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A worthy target.
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Beautifully said, Wynne. The perspective the mountains give you is a balm, however we find it. Our preoccupation with the self must be carefully managed. We will vanish from the Earth, but the Earth remains.
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“Our preoccupation with the self must be carefully managed. ” – what an astute observation, Dr. Stein!
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I definitely feel this one Wynne!
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Ah yes – the power of walking, right Deb? 🙂 ❤
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Glad the mountains inspire you and lead you to find peace.
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Thanks, Rebecca!
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As others have mentioned, visualizing the unloading of a pack and then re-loading only the essentials seems so powerful. It’s amazing how curative time in nature can be, no matter what ails us. Thank you for the beautiful reminder, Wynne.
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Time in nature – always so good, right? Thank you, Erin!
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Wynne, I love that analogy of taking anxiety out for a walk. As you note, just recalling or executing the act of physical exercise often assists in letting the air out of the anxiety balloon we blow up from time to time.
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Letting the air out of the anxiety balloon – that’s so good, Bruce! Yes!
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Beautiful post about climbing and changing your frame of mind. Walking is my therapy each day. Being out in nature changes my perspective and I love the different views each day brings with sun, clouds, wildlife — it’s always changing.
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Perspective and the different views. Yes, Elizabeth!
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Beautiful post Wynne. Your writing reminded me of photos my oldest son sent us over Thanksgiving. He went hiking with friends through Yosemite. The pix were amazing. Everytime I look at them it reminds me the beauty of nature and why we climb and hike. Thx!
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Oh, just reading about those pics from Yosemite makes me feel better. Well said, Brian!
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The pics are his to share so I won’t be sharing them on my blog, but wow. They’re such a great reminder of what matters in life. Maybe I’ll be coming west sooner than expected. Ha ha!
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Yes, yes, yes -come west. Can’t wait to meet you all one of these days!
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Wonderful post and all the John Muir quotes will have me smiling for the rest of the day – thank you!
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Ah, thank you, Mary!
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wonderful
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Thank you!
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“I took it out for a walk and it came back in a much more manageable size.” Such a great line! I also liked what you said about climbing when all you needed to/could think about was putting one foot in front of the other, and how this both calmed your mind and put your problems in perspective. A JJ blogger had a podcast talking about how JJ was like therapy because it engrossed you in the moves and kept the outside world at bay. Same type of thing, though less life threatening, and takes far less time. 😛 I have yet to read Into Thin Air. It’s been on my radar for years. I did read Into the Wild, and that was quite fascinating.
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Oh, I love your parallel to JJ. That makes total sense. Sometimes we need to move our head out of its typical space and into the physical space! I loved Into the Wild too – fascinating is a great word for it! Thank you, dear Betsy!
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Merry Christmas to you and your lovely family, Wynne!
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I love the backpack meditation! I can relate as I think of my hiking pack growing heavier the longer I carry it. Thank you, Wynne! 💞💞💞
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