Cracked Open

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“Never get so busy making a living that you forget to make a life.” – unknown

Yesterday I canceled all my work meetings and stayed home with my toddler who needed one more day of recovery from a cold. It was a hard thing to do. Like generations of parents before me, I found it difficult to put aside all the urgency my own life to support someone else when needed and not according to plan.

It was also the right thing to do. As my dad often said, “If it’s the hard thing to do, it’s probably the right thing to do.”

Sometime in the middle of the day, pinned down with a sleeping kid on my lap, frustrated the illusion of predictability in life being shattered yet again, time slowed enough for me to notice his heart beat. Once I felt that, then tuned in to his breathing and the weight and warmth of him, I was overcome with the sensation of the deepest meditation. That feeling that there is no doubt there is a Universal center that we all belong to and can reach. A sacred place of timelessness and love. The Divine heartbeat.

It never fails to surprise me that beneath my narrative is a rich and deep experience. Like a nut, when I crack open the hard exterior of my perspective, I am always rewarded but the meaty contents within. At the end of the day, my son felt better and I, surprisingly, found myself rested and restored even though not a single thing on my to-do list was done.

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9 thoughts on “Cracked Open”

  1. I had an unexpected day off yesterday because my kitchen faucet broke and I had to wait until apartment maintenance fixed it. It was good timing for my health because it let me rest from a bad migraine the day before and to help me fight off a cold or something I felt was trying to take hold. Grateful for blessings which come out of difficult situations!!

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  3. I hope your little one is feeling better today! 🙏

    I hear you on the illusion of predictability and I hate these unexpected stressors. But it certainly puts into perspective what matters most in life!

    Wishing him a speedy recovery!

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  4. Sometimes unplanned things fills your life with experiences. Either good or bad. And the interesting part is that it left us in a doubt whether it happened for a reason or not.

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